Yesterday was not a good day.
It was the kind of day that made me incredibly thankful that His mercies are knew every morning. When my head hit the pillow, it was such a relief to know that there was a new day waiting for me when the sun came up because yesterday? It was a big, fat fail.
I've been thinking a lot about grace lately. I've been reading through Galatians and Paul talks about how if he were to set grace aside and not talk about it, then what Christ did for us on the cross was in vain. That's intense.
As much as I receive his grace and survive on it, I rarely acknowledge it and let it really do its work in me. I fight and wrestle and cry and grow pretty restless because I'm trying to do it all by myself. And he could really do so much more through me if I just backed off a little bit.
What a life-changing thing, that grace. Both in the big picture and in the day-to-day.
I'm doing a Bible study with the #SheReadsTruth community and one of the recent questions has been sort of turning me inside out, in a good way:
Do you ever feel the tendency to praise God for his grace, without letting it transform you?
Um...every day.
My goal and my prayer is to start letting it transform me. I don't want to get to the end of the day and merely thank him for the grace that got me through it, but I want to let it do the work in me that it's meant to do. I want it to teach me how to love my husband better. How to dive deeper into the relationships I'm building here. How to let go of my tendency to seek approval from others. I want it make it easier for me to give others the benefit of the doubt. And to make me more selfless. And to give me patience when I feel like all I'm doing all day long is trying to keep my son from busting his head open on the coffee table.
Stuff like that.
I want it to transform me.
So here's to tomorrow and the next day and the next day and the next day. Here's to new mercies and abundant grace. Here's to the joy we have in knowing that his grace will never leave us where it found us.
Amen.
Just this springI finally realized that as a Christian I need to surrender to God's grace and love. I feel like I start over every day...and to use your words, many of them are a "big, fat fail" as far as this is concerned. But I guess that's the beauty of it -- our failures don't change His love for us, and our understanding and acceptance of that fact only increases our love for Him. Sometimes God's plan is so complicated and so simple at the very same time.
ReplyDeleteLove that - our understanding and acceptance only increases our love for Him. So true! And what an awesome gift that is.
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